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A good tragic antiheroine is hard to find
Dec. 28th, 2021 10:23 pmI swear, Lucrecia is the most exhausting character I've ever written. I keep wanting to write a longer fic from her POV but every time I try, I am BONE-FUCKING-WEARY after like 500 words. And then it becomes hard to keep writing because I'm so sure that the reader will also be bone-fucking-weary after 500 words that I can't imagine them wanting to keep reading.
Yes, it was my decision to make her an absolute mess. Scratch that. It was my decision to lean into her existing characterization as an absolute mess and heighten it up to 11. Because I need to make readers understand what would drive a person to do what she does, even if they hate her for it. I need to elevate her to tragic anti-heroine. I need to create a version of her that stays with people, whether they like her or not, and makes them wonder what they would do in her place. But I don't want people to read two paragraphs and go, "Damn. I'm tired of this bitch."
Yes, it was my decision to make her an absolute mess. Scratch that. It was my decision to lean into her existing characterization as an absolute mess and heighten it up to 11. Because I need to make readers understand what would drive a person to do what she does, even if they hate her for it. I need to elevate her to tragic anti-heroine. I need to create a version of her that stays with people, whether they like her or not, and makes them wonder what they would do in her place. But I don't want people to read two paragraphs and go, "Damn. I'm tired of this bitch."
